be still ....

i've been emotionally preparing myself to get ramped up for our move to the property.  nervous?  of course! excited?  you bet!  but what an adventure!

so what happens?  i get sick.  and not just a cold or flue (which i have had lingering for weeks now).  i have shingles.

ugh.

and all those stories you've heard about how painful they are .... they are true.  and mine is a fairly mild case from what i can tell.  i have this constant dull ache up and down my spine and to the side .... along with blisters and the occassional feeling of a knife jab into my side .... truly .... no fun.

BUT

i have to sit quietly
i have to find a position where the pain isn't so bad
i have to let others do things for me
and i can't cuddle my kids

it's breaking my heart!

but it is also making me stop and rest ... to allow God to work.  to calm my heart about all the things that need to be done.  to allow others to grow as they do things for me.  pretty humbling really.

so as i heal, i am inclined to remember and ponder on the following Scripture, remembering that it is in the quiet and rest that I find His blessed assurance  ....

He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; 

    I will be exalted among the nations,

    I will be exalted in the earth.”

The Lord Almighty is with us;

    the God of Jacob is our fortress.

Psalm 46:10-11

i kinda feel like God is forcing me to stop.  to bring me to a halt and remind me to look at all that he has done .... that He will continue to guide and lead us on this path that He has chosen for us.  and i should REST in that .... be at peace, because I know who He is and that He will provide us all we need.

oh .... and rest assured.  i might not be doing things .... but as you can tell by this photo ... i am planning and thinking and organizing .....