Act Your Age, Wud Ya?

been a while.  life is chaotic and i'm stressing .... so what else is new?  when will i learn to rest (the psalm's do say "be still and know that i am God."    i do know that ..... but i never live it.  me thinks that perhaps God is giving me yet another chance to be at peace in Him .... rather than knowing we are doing the right thing but stressing anyway, because it is just what i do .... 

naturally.

you see of late .... i'm feeling old.  like ..... really old.

 my hay-fever is acting up like there is no tomorrow so i can't sleep at night so i am buggered most days.  so that ain't fun.  

and get this .... talk about a problem.  i have sprained my RIGHT ankle.  so rest right?  give it a few days and you'll feel better (because i need to pack boxes and they just aren't getting done!).  but in my LEFT knee i have been officially diagnosed with osteoarthritis .... which needs movement to keep it from seizing up.  yeah .... go ahead laugh ... my right ankle needs rest and my left knee needs to move .... how would YOU handle that dilemma?  well, admittedly, i'm not handling it well .... so there you go.

and on top of that i see piles growing around the house that need to be sorted and packed and too, i am leaving in two weeks to go over with our church and school to the Philippines and work at the orphanage the kids come from.  crazy woman!

and as a result i feel like this  ...

  

yeah, i do ... in fact i reckon she's got a heckuva lot more twinkle in her eye than i do right now.

perhaps part of it is that middle age is starting to hit me for the first time.  i don't see why i need to grow old.  i should still be young and virile .... so instead i let the inevitable middle age thing get the better of me, and i feel much older than i really need to.

see .... this is how i should feel.

i reckon there is nothing wrong with that.  talk about graceful middle age!  

i know once we are on the property and know that this is our place .... our slice of heaven things will be better.  sure there will be rough spots (good grief .... i'm living in a caravan for a year .... i'm not stupid!) ... but being on the land and living the dream that we are called to will be good for the soul.

and in the meantime?  i try to rest the ankle and move the leg any way that i can.  and ... i get a hair cut .... because let's face it .... for us girls .... a hair cut is as good as therapy any day!  

may you have a great day .... act your age .... but don't let it get the best of you.  use all that you have learned to make the rest of today a better day .... and tomorrow even better still.

.... and be at peace .... and rest (cause let's face it, when you get to the other side of 50, i'll take any excuse i can for a nana nap!)